funny that i would end my last post /w the word prayer...ok....1st things first....my parents sent me flowers!!!!! i almost screamed when i saw the package. i seriously DID NOT expect ANYTHING. much less flowers!!! :D amazing parents, amazing :) :) :) ... so here is a pic of me /w the wonderful flowers sent by my wonderful parents :) oh how i love them. i dont think they even understand :) ...


ok. so last blog was before church. church @ westminster chapel was a-m-a-z-i-n-g. wow. i dont really have words for it. the end of the sermon was kinda awkward cuz i didnt know when to leave, but the songs were the same as the ones i sing back home. i knew all the words. and to be in worship and fellowship with other believers....wow. i did not realize how starved i was for fellowship. i almost cried. it was seriously the closest i have come to feeling @ home since being here. not like im homesick or dont feel like i belong here (cuz i actually feel like i belong on london more than i do other places) .. but just a feeling of peace and true comfort. idk....hard to explain. lets just say im going back. not an option.

the 1st day @ oxford house was....well unproductive to say the least. they dont really do internships here over in the UK, so most of the supervisors we work with dont really understand what an internship entails. basically i spent the day surfing the web and chatting /w the receptionist. it was fun, but unproductive. today was way better. we sat down /w our supervisor and made a game plan for our time here. me and the other guy from my program @ oxford house are going to reconnect the relationship with oxford university. it'll be a project, but i think it'll be rewarding in the end. also, i think im going to develop a weekly newsletter for oxford house. and i want to work with the youth, so maybe help put on a few neighborhood events. i feel good about it. i love the ppl there, so im glad i got put there. we'll see how the rest of the week goes.

so yesterday i was feeling really unsettled about my whole not going back to camp plan. dont get me wrong, i do not wanna go back to camp. but i felt as if God was trying to tell me something. i emailed ryan and told him i had no intentions of returning to camp, but i felt some weird nudge or something from God and was wondering if there were any positions he hadnt filled. he emailed me back today (fastest reply i have ever gotten from ryan graden lol) and said that he still needs a waterfront coordinator. basically a glorified head lifeguard. it would be a big responsibility with loads to do and i wouldnt have campers. i dont know what to do. is this God telling me he wants me to go back to camp? but i have this awesome opportunity to intern @ eastside in minneapolis with my anger management classes over the summer. and i could make lots of money by working @ bethel over the summer too. i WANT to be doing anger management this summer. but i also love camp.... bailey would be there....and michael....and carter.... (oh yea....bailey and michael are t3 coordinators together lol....i can hear the wedding bells now! ;) haha) ...

brittany is struggling with her own stuff going on....im struggling with everything...i miss my sister...i wanna talk to somebody about this whole camp thing....i wish i hadnt emailed ryan....but i know God wanted me to .... what does this mean?

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God please send me an answer....to everything